Grief

Grief, it's such a hard thing. I'm mourning the loss of ability. I want to grocery shop, drive, or even crochet without exhaustion. I've had to rely more on my family lately. I don't like burdening them.
Glory to God in all things though, and as one friend said to me, "Keep your mind in hell and despair not." St. Silouan the Athonite. It's like saying, "Keep your head up", even though it seems as though you're drowning.  You may be in hell right now but do not lose sight of your salvation and the One who cares for you. We live in a broken universe. This means bad things can happen to nice people and vice versa. Illness is an unfortunate consequence of the brokenness of this world. I dont ask God why I'm sick. It's never crossed my mind. I'm more concerned with the 'what' (what this illness means for me and my family) than the 'why'. I am grateful for that. Glory to God in all things! Good, bad, or ugly.